I feel defeated and deflated.  I guess I don't know how to communicate my needs to you anymore.  I need to be reassured, because I don't like this distance.  I don't like that you're way over there and I'm way over here, especially considering we started dating three weeks before you left.  This isn't easy, and don't get me wrong, I know it's absolutely no cake walk for you either.  But on the other hand, you know what's going on and what happens during a deployment, whereas I'm completely clueless.  I don't know what to do anymore, but I know that I'm tired of feeling alone and upset and like I don't matter to you.  I know you say you like to hear from me, but it certainly doesn't come across that way.